I don't really know why I'm writing this, I mean, I don't even know what the hell I'm gonna write.
I guess I just needed to 'express myself in some kind of normal way'. You know me, I'm not the kind of person who writes letters to his lover. Well, I'm not the kind of person who writes, in general. I, I barely talk or express myself in any kind of way. I've always being the stupid introvert one, the shut-in girl.
But... something changed, something changed when I got to know you. There is something about you that made me feel different. I suddenly felt connected to something, I'd never experienced that before...
It was always me, and them.
I never thought there would be a we in my life-story. I didn't even buy that Nintendo thing because of it's name. And that's why I write you from my iMac while I listen to music on my iPod and watch your photos on my iPad.
That last paragraph was lame, sorry, I already told you that I'm not used to this kind of things. To the kind of things that require you to express yourself. That's more like a Madonna thing. Haha. Ok, That was the last one, I promise you.
The thing is that ever since I know you I feel connected to you. Even thought you are a few light-years away from me I still feel that connexion. It feels like some kind of magic. But I suppose that it is just love. I love you. And I need you just right here with me. And I need to be part of you. But I guess that's just impossible.
You know what's funny, my love? That I had just wrote you a love letter and you are nothing more than a conception. I just wrote a love letter to you, to the past, and I started it calling it a 'normal way of expressing myself'. Your love is letting me insane. You son of a sexy bitch.
I wish I could live on you.
I wish I could live in the past.
Because then, but not now,
I would be as respected as I deserve.
December, 2025
Maria